lol

i love how were already planning to leave this shit hole.
i started saving today.
i has 20 dollars set aside for this.

10 dollars out of my allowance every week will be put away.
once i get a job, 25-50 % will be saved.

more is better then less.
were going to do this.

Poetry

This ones about my ex bffeaeaeae.
about how we started to drift apart.
about how she talked to me.
yeah, i wrote it forever ago, but i found it and i like it.


"The words you write portray a harsher tone then intended.
No love or caring is passed through this spider’s intwined web.
Reading makes hearts sink.
Flowers fall.

Forget short and sweet.
Short and bitter.

Question answered a similar unhappy tone.
Why bother being friendly
Forget us.
You didn’t want us.

That part of our life is over.
“Our” has turned into me and her.
No more sharing.

Forget."

jfjf

just a warning, some of my blogs are just rants.
rants that i don't want to post on my nexopia, or deviant art:

I dont even know where to start. This is a relationship that i adore, but sometimes things dont feel right. Im not asking you to buy me stuff and take me places, but i feel that you dont care sometimes. When really, i know you do care. Because all the things you say, and how happy you get. But i feel our relationship is mainly based on sex. It doesnt have to actually be doing to deed, just whenever were together. And that may be just because we dont have anything else to do, but hangout somewhere. And it may just be my fault. And it may even just be a figment of my imagination, and my lack of expierence with longterm/intense relationships.
But maybe im not crazy, maybe this is true.

I dont know.
I just think alot.
I love you.

Just some words before you read my stuff.

Just so you know:

-im a terrible writer [i think]
-im very absent minded, so i might start on one topic, and end at another.
-im not very deep.
-i rant
-im depressed alot.

What is love? Baby dont hurt me, dont hurt me, no moar.

No seriously, what is love? I know the question has been asked [obvs, that stupid song.], but really, what is it? I know its just a feeling, but how come its such a touchy, emotional, happy, unhappy, crazy, sane, stupid, smart, weird, normal thing? And us humans find it so interesting? And its all we strive for? 99.9% Of humans are constantly looking for love, something to love and something to be loved by. May it be another human, an animal, a substance, an activity, a job, or just anything. Love is everywhere. Even the most sick and twisted people search for love.

Humans need love in our lives from the very moment we are created. If our parents didn't love us a little bit, we wouldnt be here, or we would be sitting somewhere in a vegitable state from our mothers not treating us right when were in the womb.

Once we enter this world, we need love or we either die or just end up crazy. Most killers, psychos or just people with issues have those problems because they didnt get love when they were growing. They were leglected, so they turn to those things that make them happy, [ie; that they love to do].

But just imagine the human race without love. We already are the most twisted, violent, power hungry, greedy, angry, and frightening species out there. If love was taken away from our minds, we wouldn't exist anymore. Sure we'd probably still have a sexual drive and all those other natural things, but without love we'd be even more insane.

Or maybe, without love, we'd be normal. Less jealousy, so therefore less violence. Less depression, so therefore less suicides and substance abuse. There would be alot less of alot of things.

I dont know. This is just a stupid rant. Maybe it made you think?